September 27, 2007

Ground Rules

I have decided that somewhere along the line I became one of those fucking people I hate.  I work a lot.  Yeah, my "on-campus" time is pretty low, and I admit, I was 100% scarce over the summer, but I do an awful lot of work at home.  Grading, answering emails, writing, etc.  I even agreed to give up half of my fucking weekend to attend a seminar Thursday thru Saturday.

It has got to stop.  It winds me up and I don't have any me time.  The TiVo is proof enough.  In the last 6 months it's just loaded up over and over again.  Hell, I never watched the last 8 episodes of House last season!  Yeah, you read that right.  House.  I want to catch up before we get going again.  And I have almost a whole season of Painkiller Jane and The Riches to finish.  I've seen maybe two episodes of each.

I haven't crocheted in months.  It took me weeks to get the camera sent off to Sony for the recall repair work.  I barely keep up with my calendar.  If I don't get something scheduled right away, I miss it.  My brain feels 10 steps behind.

I have a story I'd like to write, but I can't get up the motivation to put it down and it keeps rattling around, waiting for me to get to it.  I hope it doesn't get stale.

So I've decided that work is going to stop following me home.  Grading I'll do, but I am not going to check email or worry about assholes or agree to do anything outside of business hours anymore.  It fucks me up too much.

Maybe I'll even be able to blog again on a regular basis.

Posted by caltechgirl at September 27, 2007 12:32 AM | TrackBack

It definitely sounds like time for you to make more time for yourself. You go! The rest will wait on you...

Posted by: Richmond at September 27, 2007 07:32 AM

you go girl!

Posted by: wRitErsbLock at September 27, 2007 07:40 AM

It's so very easy to get sucked into overdoing things. To say "yes" to one more thing... It takes a little time, but once you figure it out, you can certainly cut back. Good for you for spotting it.

Posted by: Teresa at September 27, 2007 07:42 AM

Hooray for healthy boundaries! I guess one thing I have been able to manage to do is to avoid "needy" people (your "assholes," I think) outside of campus-time. Oh, once in a while I have a student who manages to divine that my "First initial, Last Name" listing in the phone book is me and calls me at home, but that's mercifully rare.

Posted by: ricki at September 27, 2007 08:07 AM

It's all about balance. You have to take time for you, because... NOBODY is going to insist on it and everyone else will frickin' SUCK YOU DRY. Work can be a big leech if you let it.

I'm sorry you're going through this. I've been there. I have found I get in that rut when I have a new job, as I am so excited... but after awhile I think, 'WTF? Did I do this AGAIN?' It makes me hugely resentful when its really all up to me to carve out MY time.

Posted by: Bou at September 27, 2007 01:11 PM